Thursday, March 19, 2009

Jumping Hurdles

As many of you may already know, Ethan's surgery went very well today. I was a much happier mama as this one only lasted a little over an hour! The pacemaker is in and it seems to be working as it should. There isn't much to report as far as updates are concerned. Ethan is back on some pain/sleeping medication so he spent most of his day being pretty out of it. He did wake up when Jeramie and I were in the room and gave us some really good "eye time". I love it when he looks at me and responds to my voice and touch. It helps me believe that he knows who his mama is, even amidst all of this.

It seems as though his unexplained bleeding is starting to slow down. The pulmonologist has yet to run any tests; they're trying to hold out and see if it stops on its own. The team doesn't want to risk causing any more trauma to whatever is going on and I'm totally OK with that.

Personally, I'm starting to feel a little bit of anxiety about Jeramie going back to work on Monday. Thankfully he'll only be 10 minutes away, but something about being at the hospital without him doesn't seem right. I don't know if I'll be lonely as much as I'll be missing his strength and support.

Speaking of Jeramie, I knew he would be a great dad but I don't think I was prepared for the emotions that would come along with seeing him in this new role. If he just looks at Ethan the right way, I cry! My favorite is when I walk in and find him humming our new favorite song, Amazing Grace, to him. We've started calling the following verse "Ethan's verse":

"Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
'Tis grace that brought me safe thus far
And grace will bring me home."

Thank you, God, for your grace.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you, your husband, and that precious baby boy. Your faith and hope are inspiring. You are truly a strong woman. Let me know if you need anything!

Love in Christ, Tori Shaw

Audra said...

And once again, I'm in tears. Good tears, though. I'm so relieved to hear the surgery went well. I'm sorry Jeramie has to return to work so soon. You continue to be in my thoughts and the topic of conversation every day amongst the adults in the classroom. We all miss you, feel for you, Jeramie, Ethan and your families, and are praying for you all.

Amy said...

I have a frame with the following saying in it, " I know God won't give me anything I can't handle...I just wish he didn't trust me so much." God trusts you with this precious boy and chose you and Jeramie out of all of the parents in the world. You are a great mom and Ethan is very blessed to have the two of you.
Thinking of you often,
Amy Mattingly

Anonymous said...

We're praying for you!

Love, Jessica and Hunt

traci said...

Ya'lls love is amazing. Just reading both or your blogs this morning brought me to tears. You are wonderful parents and its amazing to watch your faith and love grow and be so real.

Anonymous said...

It was wonderful to see you and your family yesterday and glad to hear things are going so well for Ethan! Prayers are working for sure! Will continue to pray for you and hope he comes home soon! I am not far from the hospital and will come visit again if you like so you won't feel alone. You are never alone though, HE is always with you. :)

Lois Johnson

Anne said...

It is just amazing to hear of Ethan's progress each day. Each day, I think of him being one day closer to being in your arms and going home. I think of you often and continue to pray for your family. Love Anne

Faith M. said...

I found your blog through lil' miss Charlotte's blog. I have been following Ethan's story for a couple days now. He is adorable! My daughter is almost 2 yrs old and has HRHS with some other added heart problems. However, she is doing wonderfully! We are waiting to find out if her 3rd surgery (fontann) will be this summer as we think she is getting closer to needing it. However, anyone who just sees her playing doesn't know that anything is wrong. She is amazing. Our heart kiddos are so resilient and God is so good.
Heart hugs,
Faith Mahoney
www.happyheartsblog.com

Anonymous said...

As Audrey Phelan is lifted up in prayer each day, so will Ethan be included, God's pride and joy. His love and devotion from Little Rock, AR.

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