Monday, December 21, 2009

My Desire

For the next 2 weeks, I am a stay-at-home mama. I really can't explain it, but I feel like this is what I was created to do.

Last night, I made a homemade chicken pot pie. Yes, you read that correctly.

A homemade chicken pot pie.

Now, my hands didn't come anywhere near the nasty, slimy chicken; I have a wonderful husband to thank for taking care of that part. But everything else was all me. I felt so proud after it came out of the oven, looking all golden brown and whatnot. There was a sense of accomplishment that bubbled up inside me and, other than needing a little extra pepper, it actually tasted good!

There was one other time, right after we got married, that I attempted a "big" recipe (homemade lasagna), but that's about it. I do not claim to have inherited any of my mama's cooking skills, but I think there may be hope that I can learn!

Then, this morning, I had done two loads of laundry, changed out the crib sheet, cleaned up after two big spit-ups, and put Ethan down for a nap... all before 9:30. And, other than the scare that came along with the gushers, I actually enjoyed it. Again, I felt accomplished.

Don't get me wrong here. I love my job and my kids at school. There's a different type of pride that comes along with teaching a deaf child to read, and count, and recognize his name. But to be a full-time mama to my special little boy is nothing short of my heart's desire.

I look forward to the day when I can be the wife and mother I aspire to be. I can't wait until cooking dinner for my husband doesn't just add to my stress and exhaustion levels. It will be a beautiful day when I don't have to rush home after a meeting or running errands, hoping I'll be able to see my son before he goes to bed. I look forward to not feeling guilty about taking a day off of work to take Ethan to an appointment, or to stay home with him after a surgery. I'm not saying that staying at home will be easy and that there won't be stressful times, but I fully believe there is joy to be found in doing the very thing you feel you are called to do.

I'm so ready for that.

"Delight yourself in the Lord
and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4


Jennifer said...

AMEN!!! Joy, I totally agree with you. I So feel as though I am supposed to be a SAHM. I find it so hard when other moms complain about staying home with their kids when daycare is closed for for the "required' 6 postpartum weeks. I completely and thoroughly enjoyed my 15 weeks at home with Brayden and pray that I will be able to stay home as long with baby #2 (if/when God blesses us with one). Enjoy your time at home with Ethan...savor every moment! I know I am going to!

Anonymous said...

Joye, are you going to be a stay at home mom soon? That would be wonderful for you.
Carolyn Roberts

Stefenie said...

Hi Joye! It is so great hearing from you!

Thanks for sharing a little about you and I look forward to staying touch through our blogs!

Stef, Ryan, Wyatt and Logan

Anonymous said...

I knew you could do it! I am so proud of you. Cooking and staying home will get easier. Now you can help me with Christmas dinner. NOT! Love you all bunches. Mama (aka) Granma B.

Mandy said...

I love this post! I can relate!!!!

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