Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Stress.

Ethan's asleep in the crib, Jeramie is at the grocery store, and I'm taking a minute to listen to some music and write. I've been in a funk today and a little bit of alone time is just what I need.

I think I'm beginning to get stressed about our house situation. I've been pretty cool, calm, and collected over the past couple of months, but after 12 showings and 1 open house (that NO ONE came to), with no offers, I'm getting a little discouraged. Our realtor has done a great job advertising for us, so now we're thinking our asking price may be a little off. I think our next step will be to reduce the price a little and see what happens. I really, really hope we can sell soon, although that may mean we'll have to put a good chunk of change on the table to do so. I feel like God is making me more than a little uncomfortable to see what I'll do, now that it's getting down to the wire. And, I can tell you, it's not very pretty. I feel more tense lately than I have in a while, and Jeramie would probably agree that I've been just a tad bit grumpy. Why is it so much easier to lose my temper with my husband than to just say "hey, God, I could use some help here."? Us humans are such warped creations. I'm sure that makes God pretty sad, considering we were meant to be absolutely perfect. I am definitely so far from that!

I can also attribute some of my stress to knowing that I will receive my last paycheck, for a good long while, next week. It is official that I will not be returning to teaching next year and, even though I am ECSTATIC about staying home with Ethan, the money worries are beginning to creep in. It seems like we've been hit with so many unplanned, expensive events lately, and it has really affected our ability to put back money like we planned to do. Add, on top of that, the fact that Jeramie is completely out of PTO, and it is enough to give me a headache just thinking about it. I'm really not sure how we can afford to stay in our house with me not working, but staying home with Ethan is a non-negotiable right now. This school year has been unfair to so many people, in so many different ways, and I know that being home with my son is what I need to do right now.

I'd appreciate it if y'all would say some prayers for me. I am an inpatient person by nature and, although that's something I've been working on over the years, those nasty tendencies come rearing their ugly heads from time to time. Pray that I can face this huge life change of becoming a stay-at-home-mama with the excitement that I feel deep down, instead of with fear and worry.

I feel like my family is going to come alive in a whole new way in just a few weeks, and I can't wait to see what's going to happen! I just pray I can be wise and full of grace as we make this transition as a family.


5 comments:

Anonymous said...

From Lois--Hi joye..Give it to God. He will make it happen. I was stressing BIG TIME about trying to buy my house (just closed last week) -- it took 2 mos to stress, cry, worry about it. And then one day I drove by a street that had the same exact name of the street of my new home, AND the neighborhood had the same name - it was here in Cary NOT in Southport where I bought the house. I said "OK God, you got my attention. I know you are in control." As soon as I LET IT GO the stress and worry was gone and it all worked. Hang on, it will work out for you too.He knows what is best for y'all.

Jennifer said...

Hi Joey,

I completely understand that house situation. Our house has been on the market for a little over 2 months now with no offers. We had consistent showings for the first month & only 2 since then. I honestly don't even know if our realtor is doing what they are supposed to do which is just a bit frustrating to me. We have also found the perfect house for us, but obviously can't make an offer on it b/c we haven't gotten anywhere with our house! Hang in there...your house will sell in GOD'S TIME! I just have to keep telling myself that it WILL sell when the right person comes along!

Patrice said...

Hey Joye,

I just called the 800 number on the Vitamix website and just talked to the lady who picked up. She was AWESOME! She told me what to do to qualify for the discount and also about the reconditioned machines. My total - with the discount and reconditioned model - was 306.28. I haven't tried it yet (it came today!!!), but I think it's going to be AWESOME! The 800 number is 1-800-848-2649. The lady I spoke with was Barbara and her extension is 2310.

Hope that helps.

Anonymous said...

I will be and have been praying that things will work to yours and Jeramies favor for so long. You two are an amazing couple and parents and I know God's blessings will shine brighter than ever before long. I,as a mother,hates it when my children are sad and down-hearted and I know that there are so many things that we face in life that we just have to give to God. How many times in the past fourteen months have we said"I don't know why, but I know there's a reason"?But, in my heart, I truly believe these things will work out. I don't need to tell you to have faith, because I know that's one thing we'll never run out of. I love you, Jeramie and Ethan so very, very much. Grandma B

Stefenie said...

{{{HUG}}}

Joye,
God doesn't expect us to act perfect because to Him we already are.

It is hard to find patience when we are under a great deal of stress. For you it has been extra hard with everything that has been going on with Ethan. It is understandable for you to be a bit grumpy at times.

Hang in there! I know how heavy financial stress can weigh on you but have faith that God will lead you in the right direction!

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